December 20, 2010

Balm

When we are struggling with our lives, are full of hurt, feeling alone, sometimes not even the love of those close to us is able to lift us up. This is when the Real World can be the most real to us; when we are searching for comfort beyond what the world made by us can provide. This is when the mystery in us is seeking the mystery of the deep world--like seeking like.


 I climb up through the field                                                    I leave work's daily rule
That my long labor has kept clear.                                         And come here to this restful place
Projects, plans unfulfilled                                                       Where music stirs the pool                               
Waylay and snatch at me like briars,                                      And from high stations of the air                       
For there is no rest here                                                         Fall notes of  wordless grace.                               
Where ceaseless effort seems to be required,                         And I let go my hopes and plans
Yet fails, and spirit tires                                                          That no toil can perfect.               
With flesh, because failure                                                      There is no vision here but what is seen:
And weariness are sure                                                          White bloom nothing explains
In all that mortal wishing has inspired.                                      But a mute blessedness
                                                                                              Exceeding all distress.
                                                                                              Wendell Berry, A Timbered Choir

Going to the wild, the natural, in whatever way we chose, is going to our original home. It opens up a channel for us to receive the invisible soothing potion our hearts and spirits naturally recognize.  Where ever this place may be, no matter how modest, it can still draw out the toxins of in our hearts and  clear away the debris that chokes our decision making.The wound will still be there--that is our work to do--but we will have received from our time spent there a bit of the ineffable balm of God to use in healing it.